Not every run will be a run that you look forward to. Sometimes you dread them because the workout seems scary. Sometimes, you’re tired. Sometimes, you’re unmotivated. Sometimes, something just feels off.
But you start, and sometimes you find that after a mile or two, when you warmed up, you feel better and you’re glad that you’re out running.
Sometimes you find that nothing, and I mean nothing, will make the run happen smoothly.
Unlike Ben, I’m not a morning lark. I don’t bounced out of bed at 5 am chirping, “It’s morning! Time to wake up!!!!” Yes, that’s literally Ben in the summer. I curl up with the blanket and close my eyes and pretend that daybreak hasn’t happened yet.
Neither am I a night owl. I don’t like staying up all night long after people have gone to sleep.
I’m a solid middle-of-the-day person. My best work happens between 10 am and 2 pm. If I could do all my training during that time period, I would. Because of work, I generally try to run by 8 am or so. I just find it too hard to run at night after work, although I have done it a few times.
This morning because of a packed schedule, I decided to run on the treadmill at 7:30 am. You’d think a half hour wouldn’t make all that much difference, but somehow it did. My body just didn’t feel ready. It wasn’t that I was tired or that I needed to use the facilities. It just didn’t feel prepped to go. I moved sluggishly and my bronchitis acted up, so I was having difficulties breathing. A part of this might be that today is the first real warm day of the year.
My body, especially when related to running, reacts weirdly during the first warm week. My runs are all off. I feel terrible. Once I get acclimated to the heat, then things go back to normal (albeit with slower runs until cool weather returns).
After two miles, I called it quits. I felt terrible. It wasn’t getting any better. I couldn’t breathe. I didn’t need to put in miles, so why go through all this? I wasn’t brave. I didn’t push myself. I quit.
Many years ago when I was more into powerlifting/weightlifting (SQUATZ!!!!), I followed various coaches. I remember one coach who said that if you’re properly working out, then 10-25% of your workouts should be “bad.” Sometimes a poor workout is attributable to a specific cause, such as sleep or nutrition, but a lot of the times it’s for no reason at all. He said we needed to learn to accept these bad workouts as being a part of the process.